lost

over the past week i have had a lot of emtional ups and downs. depression comes and goes but it seems to get real bad really fast. Anxiety is also a problem. I can't seem to get my head straight.  I can feel the pain coming on and dragging me down. Thoughts creep up on me and become overwhelming. I find that i need to escape to focus on something else. Books always help but i think i'm just trying to run away from my thoughts becasuse I can't face them.