mon pm

When i woke up this morning i wasn't depressed. that's the first time that has happened in a while. Went to a 6am meeting then detox at noon. Hadn't been to detox in a while so I was a little rusty. Still managed to get my story out. I feel like I could have done better. I guess i always think i can do better. it is so easy to find fault with myself. Went to 7pm meeting. I was tired and anxious. All day today i felt like anxiety and pain was right below the surface. I managed to keep it at bay but I'm not sure that is a good thing. I need to face my fears not try and repress them by telling myself i am ok when I'm not.