sun am

I feel the pain a lot lately. Somewhere deep inside it feels like i'm dying. An intense sadness that is overwhelming. It makes me want to withdraw from everyone. to be alone. I think i expect the pain to diminish with time. It always comes back and usually pretty quick. I had a good time last night it just didn't carry over into today. I just have to hang on and get throught it. I know I can if I try. I need to call somone to talk but I really don't want to. I'm sure I will feel better after churh.